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[05 Jul 2006|07:36pm] i want somebody who sees the pointlessness and still keeps their purpose in mind i want somebody who has a tortured soul some of the time i want somebody who will either put out for me or put me out of my misery or maybe just put it all to words and make me go you know, i never heard it put that way make me go what did you just say!? i want somebody who can hold my interest hold it and never let it fall somebody who can flatten me with a kiss that hits like a fist or a sentence that stops me like a brick wall if you hear me talking listen to what i'm not saying if you hear me playing guitar listen to what i'm not playing and don't ask me to put words to all the spaces between notes don't ask me to put words to all the silences i wrote in fact, if you have to ask, forget it do and you'll regret it i am tired of being the interesting one i'm tired of having fun for two just lay yourself on the line i might just lay myself down by you but don't sit behind your eyes and wait for me to surprise you i want somebody who can make me scream until it's funny give me a run for my money i want somebody who can twist me up in knots tell me, for the woman who has everything what have you got? i want somebody who's not afraid of me or anyone else in other words i want someone who is not afraid of themselves do you think i am asking too much? 1 DoT| WhAt Do U sEe?

[12 Jan 2006|11:42pm] [ music | frou frou ] lets go back in time and reminisce on things that i haven't lost yet. Peace. Not speaking. Words are shit. I still know this. Eva and me are soul-mates. She is my other half. Always will be. Alyse is the only person who honestly understands ME and what im going through. I can tell her anything in this world and she SEES the world from my eyes. She doesn't need this bullshit. She deserves better. No-one understands anything.its funny when they think they do. All the girls i dance with are amazing people with amazing personalities. I laugh with them probably more than any people in the world. We have a special bond...when i leave for school...i don't know how im going to deal with not going to sheryls everyday. eric is coming home this weekend and were going dancing! I adore him and Guy S. They are like my best friends i can talk to them about anything. I envy them for being in the army and losing everything..someday me and guy will get married. we already talked about this. I am doing Mrs.Dance this weekend. That means a pagent. the dress the interveiw the walk the whole shebang. ek! Im nervous. I still have to make my resume and find a suit. Im finally starting to get this singing dream under contol. Agencies are calling me after reveiwing my music. I gotta start somewhere but I got a few interveiws...and pictures of me to be taken lets see how this goes.... 4 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[15 Dec 2005|12:04am] so things are going wonderful almost too wonderful...it makes me wonder please please everything don't change right now! ( Love love <3  ) 5 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

every eye that sees this [08 Nov 2005|09:09pm] Name your Top 5 Bands. 1...... 2...... 3...... 4...... 5...... Name your Top 5 Songs. 1..... 2..... 3..... 4..... 5..... 5 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[07 Nov 2005|09:22pm] I had a good weekend ( Tuneoutwhileyouhearthestereo ) 4 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[21 Oct 2005|07:47pm] *I saw a psychic this weekend and she knew everything about me. she also told me im going to get married 4 times and have 1 child. *Jessie Huglet kisses on the check make up for everything. *I love Ben Folds Five *My job kicks ass *when a guy can pull off dreads..hes got me *Im dancin to my own voice for my solo...gotta get recording w. jim. *Im accepted to CMU with tons of scholarship money. *I missed my old friend jimmy *Nothing is romantic to me anymore... *I need to stop somethingss... 6 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[20 Oct 2005|11:40pm] [ music | avril...hellyes! ] I realize that I'm not good with words my toungue stutters..I stumble..I search for the right words inside my head Theres just things I'll never say because they wouldn't come out right My words don't do my any good..There just a waste of time what use is it to me or you anyways. words aren't my vent..because they can never depict my emotions accurately. I have learned to use other things like music..dance..lyrics..song..and photography. I guess i just say things to please others..which sucks because sometimes im chatty..but.. none of the things i say really tell people what i wanna tell them because i can't... i guess my goal is come off as pleasant...but aiming to please sucks.. If i could say what i want to say... wishin my life away oh these things i'll never say at least i have a good "solid" hottie..he shares my same problem..cept he doesn't seem to want to say anything?? 2 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

The aftermath [02 Oct 2005|08:06am] It was good. and its over. 2 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[29 Sep 2005|03:08pm] im a happy girl. so theres no point in trying to change things because of other peoples opinions. we all get out of high school and no one will know who you are.. a clean slate will be given to you. yet people still hold on to their bias. They won't talk to people because of stupid things..or because they are in the wrong group. and even though its hard to imagine.. everyone thinks they are the most special person in the world..which is easy to understand ..since everyone has seen no-one's life but their own. i guess the goal is just to be happy and be content. everyone is going to be critical of you..but if your confident and you love what your doing then it shouldn't matter 5 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[30 Aug 2005|11:45pm] I never update so here it goes.. Summer is coming to an end.. I just wanna be myself this year.. and do all the things that i wanna do.. i just wanna embrace everyone for who they are and stop complaining..and im gonna block all the small annoying stuff that gets to me.. And smile right now...Im just waiting for something exciting to happen.. something will come tho... it always does. 4 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

I've posted this before... [30 Jul 2005|02:47am] [ music | speed of sound ] long live youth Long live innocence.. and youth Your imagination, Annie,Muppet Babies,Mr.dress up......running around in the fake wedding dress my grandma made for me. Stuffed animals were real. Amelia Bedialia and bernstein bears. Baby born. My Toy washer and dryer and i was convinced actually worked. computer games with four colors....or that wonderful graphical interface labeled CGA. polly pockets.... i lost all the pieces. crying got me what i wanted. The beach boys and The song my mom song that morning was the best music available anywhere. The most exciting thing about cars were the storage compartments we labeled "treasure chests." Drawing pictures of what the clouds looked like to me. I wanted black hair. It was a joy to wake up at 7:30 am to watch the saturday morning cartoons. R rated movies and MTV were forbidden and guilt producers. denist Barbie.You didn't care if your clothes came from K-mart. when my mom brushed my hair. making up dances in my basement to backstreet boys.The lion the witch and the wardrobe caused me to wander into my closet on a nightly basis to see if there was another world with a magic lion.The neighbors had nintendo and I cryed if I ended up being Luwegie instead of mario. frogs. I loved the sound tap shoes would make. My brother putting on his superman costume and me being the lady he was trying to resue. I didn't like taking naps. mr.j the singing letter was my best friend. when i could hug my dad without feeling funny and do a cool flip off his belly. I made mud pies in the sandbox and thought u actually ate them. swinging on the swing and singing to the birds. Cereal boxes had stuff inside that I really, really wanted. Christmas day was absolutley perfectly magical. Recess, 3 times a day. I had assistants helping me in dance class. dairy Twist. My dog was a puppy, my cat was a kitten. climbing on the top of the bunk bed to see if the glow in the dark stars were real. Our 4 foot pool was 1 foot above my head..............and my family spent lots of time together. My imagination was free. My heart had never been broken. and all smiles were real....i could live in every moment without thinking of the ones before... now...i can't say much of anything everything just turns to shit 1 DoT| WhAt Do U sEe?

[24 Jul 2005|06:16pm] some of  my summer air ( Getting burnt without sunlight ) 17 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[23 Jul 2005|10:22am] Thanks to everyone who came to our gig yesterday. The placed was packed and it was amazing to see it like that. Im leaving for murtle beach tomarrow for 8 days. no mom no dad. it should be fun. leave me messages...call me a lot...i will love you! talk to everyone soon <3 2 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

fake faces [02 Jul 2005|12:01pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | both hand-ani ] Hey lovely people... My band MORNING TILL MIDNIGHT is playing @ MUGS on haggerty road. On July 8th (this coming friday) @ 8:00-10:00 Please come... honestly i would adore you<3<3 thanks allll! -J.fro. 2 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

pic from photo final [08 Jun 2005|12:36pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | maria mena ] I feel like I need to let everything out. somehow or someway or with someone. My brain is like chucky soup and I feel like i can't even think anymore. I have taken lot of twisted roads lately..and they have been taking me in the wrong directions......or at least I think the wrong diretions. Life used to be so simple...pain was expected and I knew when it was coming. Now I don't know where to expect pain and things that i can't handle are popping up every where. I can't sleep at night because I have so much to think about. I just am so mad at myself lately. I have been so consumed with whatever im doing. Like I feel like i talk my head off to people who really don't care to listen or when they do care to listen just simply don't know what to say to me like....I feel like im in positions that i shouldn't have gotten into. Theres sitations that i wish never occurred but something in me wants them to happen again. Maybe its because im so consumed now.. with someone or something. Like It doesn't help that I only think the worst will happen. Like usually i am very to myself about everything but lately i just talk about everything to anyone who is willing to listen. i really wish i was to myself again. I wish i could just hold it inside of me instead of writing words or saying words in mixed sentances that i don't even understand. I guess it just sucks thinking someone or something is beautiful...because i guess thats really all i can think about is beauty and how everything has it but I can only see the beauty i want to. I guess i need to put my everything into something. Im in bits and pieces everywhere ok ramble ramble ramble 4 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[01 Jun 2005|11:42pm] when my heart skips a beat it will all be the same... ( something like this ) 9 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

poem writing on a sunday evening [30 May 2005|12:44am] [ mood | productive ] [ music | the spill canvas ]                              Its pitch black                       but I see a light flickering                     they tell me its pitch black                    but all I see are bright yellow rays               but Its a known fact that its pitch black                    Its like the sun and it stings my eyes                            but..Its pitch black 1 DoT| WhAt Do U sEe?

[23 May 2005|05:38pm] http://www.myspace.com/16746146 go here and add us we finally came up with the name geeze~! that one took forever <3 Jenna ps . I gonna miss the seniors WhAt Do U sEe?

[14 May 2005|04:07pm] Jenna Hairdid. Inc. (need ur hair done>>?) yea im pretty proud of this "work of art" this is what i did today ( Hot person not included with hair-do ) 2 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

[09 May 2005|11:59am] [ music | cannonball! ] Its days like yesterday that make me smile Im in love with my Band!!!! can't wait to get out there ( ~~The Band~~ ) 7 DoTs| WhAt Do U sEe?

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